so little time...

can i have some more? i wish we can ask those question and be answered with YES! a question like, can i have more time? with these phrase i can remember the story of Lazarus and the rich man. Lazarus, a poor and only eat what is fallen from the rich man's table. Not the left over, but whatever food falls to the ground because the left over, maybe, is for the dog. When they both died, lazarus went to heaven and the rich man suffer in furnace. The rich man asked God if he can go back so he can tell his relatives to do good things to their neighbors, but God denied his request.

The rich man has done his time on earth already. And for us reading this now, we are still on our time and we don't know when we will die.

But my point is not that i need more time. I'm just thinking of what if i have all the time, or i have the time that i'm asking.

Everyday, i feed my self to work. I work because i love to work. Since the start of the cafe there were responsibilities added to my daily list. I'm happy to be responsible in all things that i do. But still there are some that i miss. Since then, i started to free my self from all those. Not that i don't like to do this or im unhappy, but just thinking that i can have more time with less things to do. Actually, i don't have a lot to do, it just only i added things in my to do list. What more i can do? I still have more time...

Our life is really an unending quest for something or maybe a pursuit of any happiness... any happiness! Anything that makes us happy. we always pray that God would lend us more time and He granted those desires but still we put more things and even forgot to put God in our time... whew... head shot!

I admit that i forgot giving Him the time. I need time to do my work. I'm in a deadline of my work and ask for a time. I ask God that God would help me to do more work but putting him was never in my list...

As we get into our daily journey, we rush into traffics and work just to be on time but we never really rush to church or chill with God. It's learning process as i say but what if God teach me a lesson that i will never forget. I won't let that happen.

God would always be in my list.... i wish that i will not be late to wrap up!